There are so many days when nothing seems to be going your way. You get down and not sure why all this happening to you. You know the expression "When It Rain It Pours". These are the days we need to look at all the positive things in our lives and give thanks for what we do have.
If you have ever tried this, it is a very hard thing to do when things just seem so bad. It is more of just training your mind to stop being so self absorbed. I catch myself doing this all the time. Especially in today's day and time, it is always about Me..Me...ME! What are you going to do for me!
So now what I am trying to do is everyday when I am praying say what I am thankful for. I am not going to wait for Thanksgiving Day to do this anymore. It is amazing when you start looking around at your life, how many things could be alot worse. Just praying has it's many advantages and having God in your life. You know when your kids seem ungratful for all the things you are working hard to provide for them. I look at it like God looks down on us and wonders why are we are not more grateful and thankful to him. He sent his son to die on the cross for our sins and we should daily give him our thanks and gratitude for this wonderful gift.
Try to make this a practice. Start weekly and then try more often until you get to daily. Putting more positive things in our life and doing more for others has it's own great rewards!
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
What Did I Do To Deserve This?
Some days I get so upset, because I feel I am being a good person trying to do the right thing all the time. I try to help my neighbors out whenever I can, try to watch my language and just be nice to others in general. Then life comes and gives me a curve ball. For example:
My husband and work very hard to put food on the table for our kids. We are both divorced and trying to make the best of taking care of both our sets of kids without any child support from either ex. My ex was on drugs for years and owes me an unbelievable amount of money for back child support and alimony. He basically has not paid anything in the past 8 years we have been divorced. I tried taking him to court with me paying for a lawyer. The lawyer had me do most of the leg work and got most of all the information wrong in the formal documentation. Just because you pay for a lawyer does not mean you will receive the justice you are looking for ...believe me! So I took the matters into my own hands and tried taking him to court on my own. He did not show for court and they were going to arrest him on the spot but I (not knowing what I was doing) overlooked a box that needed to be checked in order for them to arrest him. So after another year of not receiving any payment, I wiped the dust off and tried it again. This time he showed up for court. There was no satisfaction in the court system here either. He just told them he could not afford to make any payments as of yet because he has been sick with Hep C. So the judge asked me what I would like to have done. I told him I wanted him to pay up or else! He told me that my ex obviously has no money and you can't get what he doesn't have.
I was so upset by this. I spent a couple years and lots of time and money trying to right the wrong for my children. It's hard when they want basic things you can't supply them. I was devestated and wondered "What did I do to deserve this?" I was the model wife and mother, still working very hard to make ends meet, started over and providing a loving home for my boys....WHY???
For years I have let this run my life. It was always on my mind and I was always striving for a way to right the wrong. Then after reading the Bible I decided to let it go. Why struggle over all this mental anguish when I don't have to...I can turn it over to God! So I did!
I have prayed about it and let God decide what was the best course for me. Six months ago my oldest son decided to move out of state and back with his dad. After years and years of fighting this I decided to let God handle it. My son moved down with his dad and within six months moved back home with me. My ex has slowly been paying some support....but hey some is better than none! But the biggest difference in my life is I have moved on and removed the unwanted stress in my life and let God handle it for me. There is one thing I have learned is that God has a better plan than I! I now currently have the most loving and wonderful husband the whole entire world, both kids want and choose to live with me, and I have God in my life which has given me an incredible sense of inner peace that I have been searching for years for.
My husband and work very hard to put food on the table for our kids. We are both divorced and trying to make the best of taking care of both our sets of kids without any child support from either ex. My ex was on drugs for years and owes me an unbelievable amount of money for back child support and alimony. He basically has not paid anything in the past 8 years we have been divorced. I tried taking him to court with me paying for a lawyer. The lawyer had me do most of the leg work and got most of all the information wrong in the formal documentation. Just because you pay for a lawyer does not mean you will receive the justice you are looking for ...believe me! So I took the matters into my own hands and tried taking him to court on my own. He did not show for court and they were going to arrest him on the spot but I (not knowing what I was doing) overlooked a box that needed to be checked in order for them to arrest him. So after another year of not receiving any payment, I wiped the dust off and tried it again. This time he showed up for court. There was no satisfaction in the court system here either. He just told them he could not afford to make any payments as of yet because he has been sick with Hep C. So the judge asked me what I would like to have done. I told him I wanted him to pay up or else! He told me that my ex obviously has no money and you can't get what he doesn't have.
I was so upset by this. I spent a couple years and lots of time and money trying to right the wrong for my children. It's hard when they want basic things you can't supply them. I was devestated and wondered "What did I do to deserve this?" I was the model wife and mother, still working very hard to make ends meet, started over and providing a loving home for my boys....WHY???
For years I have let this run my life. It was always on my mind and I was always striving for a way to right the wrong. Then after reading the Bible I decided to let it go. Why struggle over all this mental anguish when I don't have to...I can turn it over to God! So I did!
I have prayed about it and let God decide what was the best course for me. Six months ago my oldest son decided to move out of state and back with his dad. After years and years of fighting this I decided to let God handle it. My son moved down with his dad and within six months moved back home with me. My ex has slowly been paying some support....but hey some is better than none! But the biggest difference in my life is I have moved on and removed the unwanted stress in my life and let God handle it for me. There is one thing I have learned is that God has a better plan than I! I now currently have the most loving and wonderful husband the whole entire world, both kids want and choose to live with me, and I have God in my life which has given me an incredible sense of inner peace that I have been searching for years for.
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